wow. so long since ive last blogged. hmm..sch is gettin so tough lately.i can barely catch up..e gap is like super huge and its hard to cope and fill in the gap. seriously,if this goes on im gonna end up like those who just got back their o's results.it was bad. real bad this year.ppl whom i expected to do well either flunk or didnt do well.sigh sigh sigh.guess im gonna get a maths tutor after mar hols.hmmm..probably leavin sg this month.cant wait but come to think of it,i cant bear not to see him for so long.dont know whats with life recently..lotsa unhappiness,sadness and stress.darn sucky.but i guess things are gettin' better.at least for now.im so tired of school!argh.anyway,got let off by mrs thio today.didnt have to attend cca..meet jordie at city hall..walked ard and went to the toy's department.he was lookin at some toys and was so engrossed in them.LOL.oh pls..he has went back to his childhood days.hahs..everything was so sweet today.simple,short and sweet.hehs.he took me back at around five plus and he went esplanade to break with inertia after that.hmmm,i missed him so much!waiting for his call.darling-y,you're my sweetie piey.lmao.k,thats about all today.blog again.(=
indulging in jordie.
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School was boring.real boring.was supposed to be happy and all,but i was angry with someone.sigh,nvm i shld forgive and forget.well,got back my chi test paper.i did pretty well,thank God.hmmm as for my physics,i know im so gonna flunk it.i passed my eng too.hmm left with art and humanities papers not returned.i failed maths as usual.lol.sci..ahh,think i dont even have to think about it.its gettin so tough this year.hahs.anyway,skipped remedial today and went back to sleep.didnt meet jordie beacuse he had judo.my poor boy is injured.wth.why are they so rough,gotta hurt him.argh.but nvm,i'll pray that he'll heal fast.gonna meet him tmr at his station and then walk to his hse.cant wait.hehs.guessed im lovin him more and more each day.yups.lookin forward to another bboying competition.i missed seeing him break.as in battle kind.hmmm,this is for hui.sweetie hui,i know you're really upset about all thats happening,i can almost feel your pain.i used to see you chatting happily during recess but lookin' at you today,you seem like you're in a daze and you were so quiet e silence was almost frightening.the three of us just sat there,not saying much.sigh.i thought i even saw tears in your eyes.hmm,guess i was seeing stuff?hope so.i rather i was.sigh.just wanna say,even if you're heard this one million times,i'd still say it,i'll always be by your side when you need me.others may not understand but i will,even if i dont,i can try to.i can be a listening ear and lend you my shoulder to cry on.sounds old fashioned but yep,thats what i'd really do.well,hope to see you back to ya old self again.i know i would.waiting for that day * as for my jordie boy,sleep tight.sweetest dreams.i love you. -kisses you.
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I hate you.i've never allowed myself to hate anyone and never did.but now i do,and trhe person is you!yeah,YOU!you're broke my record.you forced me to hate someone.why? why is your shadows still lurking around?why did you have to pose sucha big threat to me?why did you do those things?why do i have to bear the punishment that were meant for you and not what i shld deserve?why why why!!FREAKIN HELL WHY!why did you have to come into my life.why did you have to be so important to him last time why did you cause so much misery in me.why did you have to even be here.why didnt you just disappear from my life.i wanna forget everything.everything about you,everything about you and him but its so hard.no,no one understands.and you.stupid girl.why did you have to hurt my best friend? why did you have to ruin her life and make her cry every single day? you think its nothing? pls.you were e one who gave him up and ditched him.dont come back crying for him to come back to you after you dumped him.when my best friend and him are gettin along so well you have to come into e picture.whats wrong with you girls leaving a burden behind for both of us? dont cha know we feel pressurised to be better? treat e guys better so we wont feel like we're inferior to e girl before us? who in e hell will understand? tts why me and her stood by each other..so closely.only we know.know how it feels..shit you both,really.im being mean and agitated but just let me vent out my anger,i promise i'd be fine after this.just dont ask me why i said all this and whatsoever.you wont get an ans from me. t
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Went town with hui and jordie last friday.was darn fun.hehs.im glad no one was left out.in fact,all three of us were laughing and playing away.yeps,almost the entire whole day.(: if only everytime it could be like that day.hmmm,went to sentosa with jord ytd.we didnt tell each other what we're wearing and when we meet up,we realised that we're both wearing white top and black boardshorts.hehs.took e monorail to palawan beach and sunbathed there.washed up and ate after that.after bathing,we realised that i was wearing black top,him black bottom and i was wearing white bottom and him black top.it was so weird.we're wearing alike when we didnt planned to.lol.we had so much time so we when to town.jordie bought his tote bag for street wear.its like finally.he took so long to decide what to buy?now his next target is bapesta and unkle dunk.it cost a bomb.man,so much for lookin' good.sigh.lol.went to watch hide and seek after shoppin'.quite an okay show except that it aint scray though.a lil confusing but overall e movie's pretty good.anyway went out with him today after church.hmmm,went town again.hahs,shopped everywhere.was darn tired..went to e arcade and played house of the dead.LOL.so long since we even stepped into an arcade pls.hee.that game reminded me of e times i used to hang out with jo and we'll spend lotsa time and money playing games.sigh.but,its all gone..those times,we'll never have them back.my lost friends,its over.just like that,who would have thought many years of friendship could end this way?years we spend laughing,crying,hugging,praying,playing,talking,its all over...but well,at least i still have my besties and all from skool.sigh.sometimes i wished i could turn back time,but its no use saying all this now cos it aint gonna be possible.well,my parents knows about me and him already.well,they didnt object.so i assume they allowed us to be together which is like a burden off our shoulders.cos only jordie's mummy knew.now both family knew.its actually kinda cool since its my first time i've made known my bf to my family as in those serious kind.and his mummy knows me too.hmmm,hope that God will guide us and bless us too.i wanna prove to my parents that doesnt mean that we're young means we're not serious.but can we?can we really prove it..i have no idea.just wanna be with him always.i mean,always.
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Yesterday,everything was gr8..till at night..he made me cry.i was so hurt yesterday..its been long since i've felt that kinda extreme pain inside me.and i did while i was crying.it reminds me of e old days.days i spent locking myself up in my room and cry myself to sleep.he asked me to forgive him and i did,though i was really hurting.i even told him i wished i'd die on e spot.it sounded foolish but really,when you're in agony,you'd wished everything will end.yeah,that includes living.i know he didnt mean it but i cant help feeling upset.its only when he messaged me did i feel relieved and went to sleep.before that hui called me.she was so worried about me..i told her what happened.she is e only one who can understand what im gg through,even when i didnt finish my sentence,she alrdy knows what im tryna say.actually i feel bad about telling her my probs..cause she has way more problems than me.in fact,shes been crying almost everyday and it seems like i'd never see her smile again.sigh.i just wished she'll be happy.its so simple,i just wanna see her smile and laugh like she used to..wanna see the cheerful her again.but i guess everything's causing her to tear instead of smile.i rmb when i passed and collect my results,shes e only one who came over and hugged me.i wanna be there for her when shes feeling down.and i've been trying,but i guess i couldnt do much cos only e guy who made her cry could make her smile.sigh..just wanna say thanks to her..we'll always be there for each other..just like these ten years we've been friends.sigh.as for you..i realised i really need you a lot.i rmb e days you used to hug me and cry real badly.i will cry along too cos i know you're hurting..then you'll look in my eyes and wipe my tears away when you yourself is crying..those moments,were so real..its like you told me how u really felt and what ur gg through..somehow,i wished you'd still do e same now..i love e way you hugged me and say tt u love my smell.i love e way you'd bring me to blue stars and we'll just spent e day away talkin' about our future..i love e way you say so cute and kissed me.i love e way you'll carry my things when its heavy.i love e way you hold e door for me.i love e way you cared about my future and my safety.i love e way you smile to me and made me feel as if nth else matters.i love e way you stroke my hair and talked to me.i love e way you hold me while im sleeping.i love e way you sing e sweetheart song to me..i love so much more about you.you you you.everything's about you.can you feel it?do you know that you mean so much to me?do you know that if im without you my world will come crashing down? do you know that i wont have e will to do anything? you said you'll never leave me,till e day you die.but is it really true? im just so afraid to lose you..sigh.i just hope you see my effort,even if you cant see with your naked eyes,just use your heart to see.see all that i've done for you,feelings that are so true for you.you're e only one who can make me smile,when everything goes wrong.i dunno how long we'll last but i know for sure that as long as i live,i wanna love you,and only you.darling,i love you.
xian ling,thanks for e valentine's day gift.(=
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On sunday,i went to meet my jordie boy.hee..went to amk supermarket with him to shop for groceries for valentine's day.we wanted to buy steak and the auntie only knows how to speak chinese so we were struggling with what to tell her eg what kinda beef we're tryna find and guess what?when we finally found the right kinda beef,jord said in chinese,auntie,wo(i) yao(want) san(three) piece beef.LOL!i burst into laughter and even e auntie laughed at him.wahahas.dammit.his chinese is pathetic!hahs.he strangled me for laughing damn loud.haha.we went around e supermarket and did our shopping.went to his hse after that and went back home.yesterday was valentine's day.went to his hse and cooked.he said he wanna cook for me and make it a memorable day.haha then when fronnie heard what he said,she laughed in a mocking way and said,ha!you wanna cook for her,you dont even know how to start the fire.LMAO.hahaha.but i was kinda surprised..the food turned out edible.lol well,i helped in cooking too and its actually quite nice.lol!wth.alrights so after that,jord's room table was too messy so we decided to use the container they put clothes in and used it as our table and we couldnt find any candle for candle light dinner so we simply off the light and left the computer light on.hahaha.retarded.but it was so sweet though..no guys cooked for me on v day before.normally we eat out so that was indeed really special to me and it meant a lot darling!really.so dont think i dont appreciate what you did for me k?hee so after that was really late already and he send me home.went to meet him today..went town..he cut his hair and now he looks like japanese dutch mix.lol.he complained at first then in e end he decided that it looked pretty good.wth..ahaha.so fickle minded.but im not used to it yet..well,after that he send me to e bus stop then he left to meet wei quan.i missed him so much now.wished he'll call soon.love you my idiot!
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Yesterday,jordie and i went to marine parade's polyclinic.we were so blur.didnt know what to do.hahs,i even have to call mummy and asked her what to do.lol.jord's room no is 2 while mine is 12.gotta seperate and wait for our turn.we kept calling each other cos e waiting was simply too long.haha.hui came to e same polyclinic too.hee..sucha coincidence.waited for darn long and finally its like my turn and my doc is so handsome.LOL.went in for less than a min or so and he gave me a MC.well,i was really kinda sick and he gave me so many medicine.didnt know it was tt serious?hehs.accompanied darling to wait for his turn and after paying and all,we went town to shop.he went to collect his trucker cap from skool and he bought a shirt from ambush while i bought a shorts from ripcurl.went down to shi rui's hse after that.vic,sean n hui came also.ate dinner there,had lotsa fun.lol.played poker and when its around eleven plus,we all went town to watch e midnight movie.in e end only vic,shi rui,sean,me n darling went to watch bayside shakedown 2.hui went off w jj n e rest.e cinema was freakin' cold and jordie was SO sweet!my toes were freezing and he held my toes in between his and kept me warm.then my hands were cold and he rubbed his hands to cause friction and produce heat and held my hands in his.hahs.hes extremely sweet ytd?wonder why?lol..well,e show is alright.vic fell asleep though.just like jordie earlier on cos ey both took e medication tt makes em drowsy.man,while i was playin poker,jordie slept on my thigh and it became so numb i couldnt feel a thing.hahs but didnt wanna wake him up.after e movie it was alrdy gg to 4am.didnt know where to go so went to jord's hse in e end.slept over there and his mummy fetched me to bishan and i took a train back from there.jordie went to his aunt's wake.supposed to meet him but in e end he went out w aaron and i slept all e way to 8pm.darn sleepy.hahs.he complained to aaron tt i didnt wanna meet him.nonsense!haha.gg to church tmr.hopefully everything goes well.sigh,alrights,thats about all.yup.gna see him tmr too.x)valentine's day is coming!
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Went visiting at around ten in e morning.darling called and we talked for a while before leaving my hse.argh.i missed him so much then.went to my 5th aunt's hse.ben and ken,my cousins were there.when i barged in e room and shouted HI!DO YOU GUYS RMB ME?? they were like lookin' blankly at me as if im some kinda alien.we didnt see each other for years you see.hahs and ben(e younger one) said..oh!you're madeline!-.-" thats my another cousin who's much younger..thank God ken was like..no!shes jessica!oh man..thank goodness i wasnt forgotten.hahs.then ben went,oh!e one who played w me and sat w me in e plane to hong kong!then ken was like no!she sat w me!seriosuly i dont rmb who i sat with so i just kept quiet and watched em argue.LOL.still,i missed em.after eating lunch w em,i went off to meet jordie!hee.went town w him but its like e shops were mostly closed so we went to his hse n chilled there.nth much to do cos we were both so tired.so fell asleep instead till his daddy called and asked him to go visiting.so his mummy fetched us to yck mrt station.darling was supposed to take cab frm yck but he was so sweet.he accompanied me to town and we both took a cab from there.i took to 5th aunt's hse again and this time so many of my aunts,uncles and cousins were there.gotta greet so many.hehs.mummy played majong and daddy played cards.i played w ben for a while and darling called again.talked to him for darn long,talking about some plans for smth..hmmm,tmr some of my peeps,jordie and i aint gg to skool.man,i only went skool for one day which is mon for this entire week.so shiok.hahs.hmmm,gg to poly clinic w darling tmr then we're gna shop(if its open) then go jasmine's hse together!yeaps.cant wait!hee.i love you so so much and i miss your smell!
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Woke up suddenly and looked out of the window.normally when i open my eyes its still dark..but somehow today my room is bright with sun rays streaming in my room.i looked at my hp and it reads 8.32am..i went back to sleep.a second later,i pop my eyes open and sprang outta bed!i was supposed to be in skool,performing!why the hell am i still in bed.i went downstairs to daddy's room..no one was there.i called mummy and realised that she didnt wake me up cos she FORGOT that i had skool.so there goes my cca bonus points..argh.so darling called and wanted to go out.it was darn early..wanted to sleep more but hes obviously more important than my sleep.so woke up and waited so long for him in town cos his mummy was caught in a jam.after what seems like eternity,his mummy came and fetched me and jordie to wheelock place.we walked to lido and watched constatine.pretty nice movie but a lil confusing..chilled after e movie and waited for his mummy and she fetched me home..hahs i didnt know e way at first but in e end i knew how to lead e way to my hse.WOW.its smth amusing..wahaha.darling was like,wah,you know e way for once.wth?i dont take tt route home and i know how to guide its alrdy smth to be proud of.LOL.went home after tt,ate my dinner and nothing much to blog actually.anyway its our 3rd month anniversary!hope to spend every single month w ya darling.i love you so much and you mean a lot to me!happy chinese new year eve everyone!
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Talked to gerald jie after service yesterday.had quite a long talk..hmmm after that we went to macs and i slacked there with e other youths.went off to meet darling after that.nick accompanied me to e bus stop and he is like still teasing me about my f.ster profile till now?hahs.retarded..meet jordie at far east.his friend wilson is there also.they went to this shop called surrender.wow,i felt like i walked into an art gallery?its damn nice la!the clothings and all were damn dope?lol..jordie says he's gonna shop there e next time.man,hes sucha spendthrift lately..spending so much more than me and its gettin pretty freaky.lol.we went to sneak attack and he got his air max..went to his hse after that and watched skillet's break video!!damn funny!wahaha.i nearly fainted?ate at his hse and we both think fronnie(his maid) hates me!sobs!wahaha.darling got kinda mad and asked fronnie why i said thanks to her and she didnt reply.well,he told me not to care cos shes like that.hmmm?yeah but i shouldnt care so much cos its like shes also not e one marrying me.but shes quite a nice person la..but i still like jordie's mummy e best!hee,sucha nice woman.stacy is also quite easy to talk to..hehs.accompanied darling to have his haircut and went back home and waited for him to bathe and we went back to town and walked around before gg back.didnt meet him today as i went for my cca.sucks!damn tired and i was so dizzy the whole day..felt like collasping.i miss him so much!hes breaking now i guess.and i cant wait for tmr!yay..hahs.anyway imma gna eat my reunion dinner soon.steamboat!woo.hahs okays shall stop here.update later if theres anything to add on.(*-*)
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Went sentosa with hui today.woke up like darn early..i set my alarm clock to eight..but it didnt ring? dont know who e hell went to turn it off and its like thank God i woke up on my own? if not i'd be sleeping till late afternoon.hmmm,e idiot who turned my alarm clock off,whom i assumed,is my elder bro.arghh.gotta drag myself outta bed and prepare.reached lavender like pretty early and had to wait for hui to arrive.sunbathed at palawan beach.tanned for less than an hour or so and it started drizzling,just like what jordie said.-beams with anger all his fault.wahahas.anyway we bathed and all,went to delifrance and ate there.after eating we had nowhere to go so we took e shutter bus and eventually fell asleep while e bus took us round and round sentosa.LOL.woke up and went home.went to meet jordie after that.went town..wanted to watch movie but didnt.saw hui,talked to her for some time then darling and i went to heeren and chill.was damn funny,all e stupid things we were doing.hahs.he stroked my hair..i love it when he does that.that gentle touch.hee went to blue stars with him..talked a lot about our future and all.it seems so near,yet so far..hmmm he send me to my bus stop n he went back.now he's bathing.im so freakin' MAD.yeah you shld know why!ARGH.im really,really cross!but,i know it wont be for long cos i can't bear to.idiot.
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Okay,so my name is finally being called out during reading period.i was so humilated because raja couldnt read my surname.argh..got called out because i skipped my cca.hmmm hui n jas kena too..hahs e funniest part was when raja couldnt pronounce hui's name.she was so embarrassed she practically ran across the hall.LOL.hmmm,got lectured by some stupid teacher who thinks she's some kinda big shot..she was so fierce and no one listened or respected her and when mrs anne tan came out and used e soft approach and talked to us,we listened.now,thats what i call a nice teacher.someone who cares for ya well being instead of just the cca itself or likes scolding ppl.anyway ytd mike splashed water at my face and i just grabbed any pe t-shirt that's on my chair and wiped my forehead and guess what? it aint my shirt! i was wondering why e hell is e shirt suddenly so big and i realised it was mike's!eww..i threw it on e floor immediately and mike went..WEI! tts mine!lol..and i asked where's mine and he found it under his table..wth?he kept my t-shirt for what.lol..vic's sick today..poor thing.everyone around me is sick..guess i needa drink more of e syrup jordie bought for me or else im bound to fall ill too.hahs.went home to change and meet darling in town..both of us saw some of our friends..hee.he's like so famous,practically everyone knows him.wahaha.im jealous.bleahs..=P lol.oh ya..just realised jordie sneezes with his hands covering the entire whole face!darn cute!haha.gosh..i took so long to realised the way he sneezes isnt the normal way..and i love pinching his cheeks.my,he's probably why e word cute is in my dictionary.muahaha,k enough,thats spastic.hahs so after that i accompanied him to yck to wait for his daddy..on e way,he leaned his head against my back and slept..i looked over my shoulders and peeked at him..he's sleeping soundly like a baby.hehs at that moment i was thinkin how nice it would be if time could freeze.i'd look at him all day long.i left shortly after to church.hmmm combine net was really nice today.didnt go for some time alrdy..e worship was gr8 and when there's an altar call,i went for it..i dunno why but i had e urge to go.and i did.i cried kinda badly..felt God's prescence there,it was so strong and i never had that kinda feeling for quite long alrdy.felt really good to be in the hse of God.charis preached today..she's damn entertaining n e lessons were much interesting w her teaching it.hmm after church i took a cab home.now im online,gonna pack for tmr..im gg sentosa w my ex sweetie hui!hee.then gna meet my darling after sunbathing..miss him loads!mwahs.
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Went skool today..mike and vic were so glad to see me.LOL.they said our area is extremely quiet when im not around..vic says im the noise maker.idiot.hahs..anyway,im kinda glad to be back at skool.missed the laughter and all..oh yeah,thanks darling for praying for me ytd.hee (= anyway me,hui,jas n some other girls got called to e principal office for skipping cca.hahs.jaafar talked like damn long?those who are weak could just have fainted on e spot.hahs he still wants us to stand properly and listen to him talk non stop.argh.finally i couldnt take it anymore,i cut him off while he was talking and said we had to go for remedial and finally,and i really mean finally,let us off.phew.went off to town to meet jordie after that.hmm..went to coffee bean,ordered stuff and sat down to do art..hmm jord drew this girl's pic which is supposed to be a sad girl,he drew e pic till it looks like the simpsons.LOL.but he did improve i must say..so happy for him? wth.haha.went to walk around after that..he went for his cell grp while i went home.well,so much to update about but i guess it'll be like a compo if i continue.k,that's about all..cant wait for chinese new year!
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wow.pretty long since i've last updated.well,things are pretty much the same anyway..just as usual..those rather no life days at skool.seriously,the reason i haven applied for lasalle-sia or nafa yet is because of what he said..somehow his words makes some sense now..maybe..maybe he was right.perhaphs i will regret my decision..i dont know.i dont wanna think about it.i dont even know what i want,where im heading for.sigh.met him yesterday..i was late.made him mad again.for..say,100th time?sigh.each time it gets so tiring to cheer him up,apologise and make him forgive me.finally when he did,i'd be e one who needs cheering up because when he gets mad he'll indirectly hurt me and many thoughts will just appear in my mind and makes me even more upset.but i've been hiding all my emotions inside me.i didnt tell him how it feels,or at least not all.but ytd i did.he hugged me but my tears just kept falling.he didnt know until he looked me in e eye.he asked me why i was crying and wiped my tears away.i didnt wanna answer.i dont know what to tell him.tell him that he's e one who made me cry?sigh but i guess he knew e answer anyway.we went to esplanade and we sat down outside,looking at e buildings and so-called sea view.it was supposed to be nice but my heart was aching.even that place alone brings back so much memories..he hugged me and asked me what happened.i broke down and told him how i really felt.he said it was his fault..sigh.it was both our fault if you ask me.one cannot prevent herself from making him angry,the other cannot prevent himself from being angry.so afterall,im more at fault right?who ask me to make him mad in e first place..but he said he was sorry for being angry over small stuff.i dont know what gg on..this is our only problem.just this,nothing else,but its causing so much misery for e both of us..but like we told each other,we will never give up because of this.if we gave up that easily,this aint true love anymore..when i was younger,i used to think since both couldnt get along,why be together?but i realised that if both dont agree on certain stuff or whatsoever,dont just give up like that.instead sit down,talk things out,give and take.accept each other's differences and flaws.thats what im tryna do all these while.i guess its e same for him.i wet his shirt while i was crying,he didnt seem to mind..instead he kept holding on to me,assuring me that things is okay.he told me he felt insecure..i know he's hiding his feelings too..i wish i could make him feel better too..but i dunno e whole picture cos he never really told me.i know he's hurting inside..so i always make it a point to be good to him and i do cherish him a lot.i can even say i've never loved anyone like i did now.sigh.i'll just keep praying for God's protection and all..im leaving everything in God's hands.i know people out there will be praying for us too.thanks guys.esp those who wanna meet me and him out to pray and talk..well,im sick,didnt go skool today.so i guess its time to rest now.ciao.
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I wont be blogging as usual today.as in my entries will be kinda rude.cause im really pissed off right now.sigh.jord skipped church to perform w inertia at NYP today.as for me,i told jacky i wasnt gg for net because i wanna support em.when we reach there,everything was fine and gg well.everyone was excited and lookin' forward for e competition..they were training and making sure ey'd do well later on.but guess what?when e battle begin,EVERY single one from inertia came out and showed their moves and dance exept jordan.its like what the hell?he wants to come out with his moves but they woudnt let him?which means everyone has their fair chance except jord.he was freakin angry,i could tell.everyone in fact.the entire whole battle,he just stood there and ey wouldnt let him do his moves.say what no time n ey were really desperate.its like everyone should have a chance to go out?no matter how short or long,how dope or lousy the person is,everyone should play a part.thats what makes a crew,a crew aint it? cos everyone respects each other and there is unity.but i simply dont see it in inertia.i know i have no right to say all this since i aint an inertian.but i consider all of the inertians as my friends cos they are really nice ppl but i just thought they would be more understanding..jord trained so hard for this competition,i know he's really anticipated about it.i mean he's constantly tellin me how badly he wanna go,compete and win the battle.me and him even sacrificed some of our dates so he could train w e inertia ppl.he even skipped church activities..that proves how important the competition is to him.and it had to turn out this way.i know the inertians apologised..but its like put urself in his shoes..imagine u were lookin forward to smth n training so hard for it.u went onto the "battle field" waiting for your chance,seeing your buddies doing all e moves and your chance just dont seem to come? even at e very last min,i dont even see jordie.do you guys even know how it feels?im not siding him just because he's my bf.if he does this to any of e ppl from inertia,i would be mad at him and ask him why he did that for.my eyes are used for seeing.i've seen unfairness in here..i mean the inertia ppl are gr8,really..nice friends,ppl and all..but i think it went a lil too far this time..i dont mean to be mad but even huihui also is cross at what happened.because we know how hurtful things can get..seeing him so unhappy,and i cant do anything for him..i feel so helpless..but thank god after that we left e battle halfway and went to town,he did cheer up.he was rather back to normal..well,im glad for that..hmmm,darling,dont be too upset k?guess maybe they had their reasons though i still think they aint being very considerate..sigh guess i'll leave you guys to settle this thing.talk to ya on e phone later.i love you.
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vic and mike was super gross today..i shant mention the details.too disgusting.hahs..i insulted mike and he wanted to playfully hit me and i accidentally scratched his hand?it was a long red scratch and his hand bleed.i was like so guilty.wasnt intentional.lol..thank god he didnt get mad.he just kept saying all thanks to me.haha.during recess,kelly gave me a cup of water..he said its specially for me..guess what? he put a prawn inside e water and offered to me? if u didnt notice it properly you'd think there's nth but its like i was smart enough to notice.LOL.that idiot.lol.played with mike's new phone in class.damn cool..he knows i wanna get it too and he kept tellin me all e bad points about the phone,just to make me forget the thought of buying.muahaha.hello?jord was e one who asked me to get that phone n i told mike about it.another idiot.lol..guess im gonna get it around new year time..after school i went to his hse.used e com while he slept..i slept a while too..was really tired.his daddy wanted me to have dinner w him n jordie but i didnt go in e end..kinda weird..lol.only his mummy saw me before..his mummy is sucha nice woman.but still,e pressure is there..but im gettin used to it after all this months..he send me to city hall and he went off to meet his dad.i think he bought his new nike trainer alrdy.he was like so elated?haha.he has like so many shoes already?and his daddy thought his nike trainer is sold at BATA.LMAO!!me and jord looked at each other and laughed our ass off.damn hilarious la.lol..hmmm,im gonna buy adidas bag from jo's friend,doug i think..but i have to wait for at least two weeks..kinda long but nvm..patience.lol k tmr i have a maths test and i suppose im not doing anything about it..k,thats all.(=
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hehs.went to meet him at e library ytd.we did art together..he was so frustrated? he said he cant draw well.hahs,well it takes time..hmm sat at cafe galilee and drew till five plus.he went off for breaking after that and i went home..hee.talked to him till rather late and then i went to bed.school was pretty fun today? e guys were really cracking me up e entire whole day.haha.during chinese period,mr chong has smth on so we had one period of free time.jie wen drew stuff on e board and we had to guess..pretty lame but we had nothing to do and so it turned out fun? LOL.some drawings were really hilarious.hahs.supposed to meet jordie after school but he had judo and he since we'll only be meetin' for a short while if we do meet cos he has church stuff,we decided to meet tmr.hehs.maybe its better this way.cos i get to spend quality time w hui today..we went to bugis and ate at e foodcourt before proceeding to try clothings at topshop.we shared a fitting room.wahaha.but we werent facin' each other la and e clothes were too big for us n when we looked at e reflection,we just kept laughing.lmao.we laughed so loud e whole shop could hear and we laughed sop badly we sat on e floor.LOL.and e worse part was i needa to pee badly..haha.went to bugis street cos bugis is really boring..bought some nuts and decided to take bus to parkway..on e way there,a sicko kept lookin at us n whats more he openly looked n smiled at us while his wife/gf is right beside him.eek.haha.then hui went...IF MY BF SEES OTHER MAN LOOKIN AT ME.......muahaha.darn corny.we just kept saying out loud lotsa stuff.hahs..went to BK and bought coke to go w e nuts.hahaha.retarded.suddenly a old man came over and handed us some card thingy.he started askin us ques and asked what nuts are we eating..being nice,sweet,caring girls......LOL.okays jk,we offered him one.that was our BIGGEST mistake..cos he brought a chair and sat down beside us..and he started talkin..ALOT.but we thought he was pitiful,so we talked to him too.then he kept wanting e nuts and i've been peeling e shell of the nuts non-stop for him and he's like not shy?after i stopped,he'll say can i have more?and i have to keep peeling for him.hello?i dont even peel for anyone.but i did cos he seems like a kind old man..he said he was from this church i never heard before..after tt he wanted hui to tk warm water for him.she went n took a small cup.he was so fussy.he said he wanted a big cup and must be 3/4 filled.so she went and he kept talking to me and i was like huh? yeah..uh uh..i dont know what to say?n it feels weird to be w him alone.hui came back and he said he wanted warm milo and at first we thought he's just tellin us..but he wanted us to buy for him!as in he wont give us e money..he asked hui again to buy for him n then a guy came over and talked kinda long w hui..i didnt know what was gg on till both e guy n hui came over and said we had to go..e man asked,where's my milo.e guy said there isnt anymore milo..(its a lie)n the old man said there is and e guy insisted there isnt n he helped us lie to e old man tt we needa leave cos our parents is fetching us home.we said bye and left bk.it was then tt e guy told us tt dont be con by that old man.he says he's been cheated 4 times alrdy.wahaha.he said tt old man always hang ard bk n ask ppl to buy things for him n wont leave till u r gg off.man that's scary..even e manager n workers of bk know tt old man n asked whats gg on..really grateful to tt guy man.after that me n hui was amazed at e fact tt we nearly got cheated by an 85 yr old man.LOL k today's entry is freakin' long.thats all.. - no matter what others think or say,we'll walk this path,fighting all obstacles together,hand in hand,with God's guidance.
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im not gonna eat anything.not even my dinner or whatever.treat it as im punishing myself.i've not eaten much to start with anyway.shant eat anything till i start to feel better.everything is so screwed up,really.school life sucks,i feel so stressed up alrdy and other problems are adding up..i feel suffocated sometimes..i needa breathe.i need God,to rescue me.what ppl see is only on the outside..no one has any idea what im gg through on the inside..today isnt a happy day at all.not even a bit.i dont understand why you could say i dont love you anymore when i do..you dont see my effort..i know you dont like to be restricted and do things you dont wanna,but what im doing is not for me.its for your sake.i guess you dont see it that way.you said you want me to warn you and correct you when you say all those..but when i do,you get upset,you say im tryna control you.so now im givin you your freedom.im not gonna care when you say anymore.and its not that i dont love you anymore but its because im lettin' you be free.yeah with your words and all.i just wanna say sorry for hurting you.well,i aint feelin' any better too..sigh.well,hope things gets better when we meet up tmr.i love you,no matter what and i wont leave you like i promised.
warm fluid trickled down my cheeks.my eyes are sore from crying.my pillow is wet with tears i cried for you.my heart is being shredded to pieces.its too hard to bear,the pain that's huanting me.i dont wanna face,dont wish to wake up to the reality that's awaiting me.my stomach is churning but i aint givin in.im not eating anything.even if illness got into me.i wanna scream but all i can do is cry myself to sleep,silently...
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went town with him ytd..wanted to watch movie but there isnt any nice shows so we walked around instead.i made him angry at cine..lol.thank god he forgave me? hee.after that we went to long john and take away food from there.jordie is SO intelligent.you wont get cheated when he's around.wahaha.darling,you're damn zai.lmao.hmmm we went to e place which means a lot to us and ate there..that place contains so much memories of both of us..after eating,he send me to the bus stop..wow,taking bus is like so much faster than train from town?hahs.anyway,went church as per normal today..felt that i needa get closer to God..hmmm,had a long talk w jo,joy n charis today..charis ask us to leave e matter to God and we must learn to forgive each other totally..well,i guess we're nearing that stage already..after church,i went to his hse.he wasnt at home at first,stacy opened the door for me..hehs.she's so cute.hmmm used his com while waitin' for him..he came in e room suddenly and made a chucky laughter.reminds me of ytd when i entered stacy's room,he hid under e bed n when i thought he was sleepin in bed,he grabbed my ankles suddenly and i got a shock??LOL.idiot.hmmm me and him ate so much today..really a lot man.watched home alone at his place then we went to seven eleven and then home..hehs.darling,thanks for that new version of "sweetheart song".lol.liked both e version in fact,cause both is darn sweet! hee,okays imma gna concentrate talkin to you on the phone now!darling..dax5 i love....YOU!
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Went shopping with mummy,hui and jas on wed..mummy left after giving me the money..went everywhere in town to look for clothes..done my cny shoppin' alrdy.hehs.anyway went to meet my jordie boy today.we watched elektra.was a pretty good movie.thought it was yucky at first but it turned out rather good.hehs.after watching movie we walked ard town.we were talkin lotsa crap and nonsensical stuff.hehs.was bored so we took some pics.dont know why today is just like any other dates we had but it just felt so special..i supposed thats good?hehs.hmmm he send me to lavender..and its damn corny cos the mrt train is packed and when e door is about to close,a fat woman jumped into e cabin.as in literally.that was super kiasu?me and jord was bursting out in laughter.not at er but at e mind concept of ppl who thinks that if they miss their train they will die or something.sigh..dont know whats on their mind,really.well,im gonna meet jordie kinda early tmr and see his crew battle with the elites crew or something..cant wait to see him again tmr.hee.he's now eating with his mummy and one auntie.well,he said something which made me kinda mad.sigh dont wanna mention it.darling,i know you'll see this,YOU'RE AN IDIOT.humph.you said you dont like me saying all these stuff..now you're saying it..you should know how it feels..so dont ever,EVER,mention this kinda thing again.
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Didnt meet him yesterday as he had judo.saw him today and my heart was doing a 360.hahs..i cant believe it.its just a day of not seeing him..gosh.i think im hopeless..hahs.anyway skool was damn fun yet damn tiring..vic fell off his chair today!!LOL.man,whats w all e guys sitting near me,ey seem to be prone to accidents.hehs..he hit his head against e floor? and his hand bleed.poor thing..guess he was really in pain.well,it was all jia xiang's fault..haha.hey vic,for once you werent the bad guy.lmao.anyway mrs radha had this habit of repeating a sentence and mike imitated her today..it was so hilarious man!i laughed till i drool on my text book?LOL!mike n e rest were like eek!muahaha.jord said it was cute.wth..hehs anyway had fun w him today..we went to shop around..man,he had so many things in mind that he wanna get.hahs..after that we went to town and shopped again.went back home after that.was freakin' pissed off w e ppl in bus 33.its like alrdy super crowded and those brainless singaporeans have to bloody hell squeeze in..i was alrdy not feelin well as its too stuffy i could hardly breathe and those kiasu typical singaporeans have to squeeze up the bus..sometimes i feel ashamed to be a singaporean,really.i bet our reputation as a developing country is tarnished by those kiasu and kiasi ppl.damn freakin pissed off..even jord was feelin cross cos e exact same thing happened to him.two kan choing girls cut his queue and he couldnt get on e bus and had to wait for another.sigh.but thankfully singapore is a peaceful country.at least for now.if not i would have migrated.lol.maybe im gna shop w my mummy tmr while jordie goes for judo.dunno,depends..hmm gna bathe now.update someday.adios
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Yesterday after service,i went to his hse to meet him then we accompanied wei quan to have his hair cut.jord was damn funny..he hates his hair now so he wna make wei quan's hair ugly too.so when e auntie is cutting his hair,jordie went "auntie,cut more,shave even better still!"LOL.sigh..my darling's so mean.but of cos e auntie aint that dumb to listen to him la.hahs.after e hair cut,me and jord went to his hse to change and we rested for a while before jogging to bishan park.was laughing and talking while running so obviously we ran outta breath.lol.so we decided to walk e rest of e way..was damn fun jogging,or shld i say walking w him cos it's our first time doing this kinda thing w our partners.hehs.went to this small lil pub place n ordered juice that wasnt worth our money.went to seven eleven after that.bought lotsa stuff,ate and walked til e bus stop n we took e bus back to his hse.was way too tired.ate noodles at his hse and we sat down to watch a funny stephen chow show with jordan's mummy.LOL.we were like 3 idiots laughing like mad ppl?had to leave before the show ends cos its rather late alrdy n whats more i live at e other end of sg..hahs.okays la.abit ridiculous.i was exaggerating.lol.so my darling send me all e way to lavender n there was a few bangla lookin' at me..damn freaky lor n he got so pissed he scolded em..wth.hahs.man,felt so safe when he's around?he was like "what are you lookin' at? whats there to stare?" if it wasnt for him i would freak out cos ey look so freakin' pervertic..but im glad he was there to protect me.hehs..anyway went skool as per normal today..lol..vic n mike is damn funny today..shant elaborate..too lazy..too much to update about..lol.went out w hui,jas,mike,vic,sean..hahs.went to look at hp n shopped around..saw amelia at her shop.yucks.im sorry,i dont see a need to hide how i feel about her.but,i certainly DONT hate her.hehs.anyway,talkin to my darling now..hee,cant wait to see him tmr.well,i love him so so much.prayed with him over the phone just now..lol.he's tellin' me how cute he is right now n tt he will show me his baby pics next time.lol..love ya. x)
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He's fast asleep now.got bored so i decided to blog.sigh.just looked at e pic he took w her last time.everytime i see those pics,i begin to wonder what if i werent w him now..i teared when i saw one of those pic.it wasnt them..but their names.i dont know why but after i saw that pic,i felt like i dont belonged.its as if i entered their world by mistake.sigh..i dont know whats w me.he cried so much for me,i ought to know he's true to me but i cant help feeling this.but that does not mean i dont trust him..i believe that he loves me with all his heart.well,me too.hai.alrights,shant talk about this anymore.hmmm today mike tricked me.he said i had smth on my hair n asked me nt to move.then he began touching my hair like he's taking smth outta it.then i felt tt smth isnt right n guess what? that idiot went to apply wax on my pony tail!argh..i feel like killing him?then he said what okok dont play.he said e wax is uneven n he helped me blend it in but e fact is that he is actually applying MORE wax.LOL.i was so pissed.haha..anyway today we had chem practical..was damn fun.did lotsa experiments..if only chem had no theory..hmm later me n jord is gg to church.hee.im freezing,got to go.later.
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ate ice cream with vic,mike,sean,hui,jia xiang and jas today.hahs.vic asked if e girls wanted ice cream and when ey said yes,he took e ice cream,threw some on e floor and said okay come get it.LOL.damn mean lor.my bus came and i went to meet jordan.hehs..was really tired on my way there.slept on him all e way to yck.when i reached his hse,i hugged his bolster and slept while he was using the com.he was so sweet..covered the blanket for me and when it got colder,he put his sweater on top of me to keep me warm.aww..BUT that idiot took so many pics of me sleeping.what damn cute?its horrible pls..hahs.he woke me up in e end and we went to a salon to have his hair cut.came back really late today..he send me all e way to lavender.hee.now he's training his footwork.after he break,he's gonna call me.well,guess thats all for today..what else can i say? school's boring.really.i love him..i miss him.i need him by my side always.
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This is my second entry for today.hmmm today at school,victor and mike tried to cut my hair.wth?haha.had fun at art class today..guess its e only thing i really enjoy now.life in school is super boring.but i thank God for my friends.if not i wont have the heart to study.sigh..anyway meet my darling after school.went to orchard library and study with him.actually didnt really study today.its more of doing homework together.hehs.we crap a lot while doing and we took some pics.then after that we shopped at topman and levi's.he brought me to lavender after that and i took bus back frm there.there's this irritating,gan choing woman near me.there's like no space and she wanna like squeeze behind me?and its like our butts were against each other.what the hell?!i feel damn disgusted pls.after so long,i finally can move to other place,she had TO MOVE BEHIND ME AGAIN.damn,i was so pissed.and there she was,leaning on me this time.argh.so annoying..anyway,tmr im gna go town w my jordie boy.hahs and of cos w mike n vic too..hope we get a nice present for xuan though i dont like her.LOL.
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she feels drained, she feels pain, feeling mixed emotions she cant explain. the pain stabbed her like a knife,as they watched her die. she cant do anything but cry. every step she takes to get closer,it seems like e further she gets. she fell. it gets harder each time she tried to get back at her feet. she feels tired. she feels weak. but she never gave up, never thought of it. this is the guy she chose. this is the guy she loved with all her heart and all her life.
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Went to watch e battle between inertia and ftc on last sat.was damn nice..sittin' there watching em break..jord hit his head and it became damn red..but he did well i must say.im so proud of you!hahs..anyway,i was late ytd when i went to meet him and he was damn angry,really angry.but he decided to forgive me by punishing me.he made me eat chendol dessert.darn gross lor!he took a video of me swallowing e whole bowl down..literally.i couldnt chew,its too disgusting..he was gloating over my misfortune.LOL.went to school as usual today,saw vic w an arrogant look on his face..he was lookin damn zai,damn proud.then suddenly,he tripped and nearly landed flat on his face.LOL!i was laughing my ass out on e spot la.wahaha.thanks vic,i forgot about this inccident till u reminded me.hahs.and mike tried to push me off my seat but failed.when he's nt lookin',i pushed him n he fell right off his seat sideways and landed on his butt w his pens all over e floor.muahaha!i was like sorry..didnt mean it.hehs.e whole class practically burst out in laughter.alright,do i sound like im writing a compo or smth?lol.okays so iwent to jord's hse today..his hse has like 1 mth supply of chips?!-yays haha.today we just held each other n cried.just so scared to lose each other.i realised how important i was when he cried when i walked away.its a crying day for both of us..but after that,we were back to normal..playing n laughing like no one's business.hehs k enough of talkin.damn sleepy.i love you tons.:)
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feel so tired,when im caught in e storm of your wrath.i feel weak,guilt filled me up as you pushed me away from your once loving arms.i feel like a bitch,im supposed to make ya happy,yet i only made ya sad..those eyes,i long to soften but all i see is disappointment in em.you're so blinded by anger,you dont see my effort..you lost trust in me,whatever i used to say.i feel so hurt,as if you ripped my heart out and left me to bled.im aware that u loved me with all your heart,thats why i hate myself for hurtin you..i wanna see you smile,see that special look in your eyes when u look into mine..i wanna say im sorry,for all e things i've done.i really wanna do smth for you,you did so much for me.but i ask myself,what exactly have i done for you?yeah maybe i did quite a lot,but all those are so insignificant compared to what you did,sacrificed for me..tears wells up in my eyes as i think of how much agony im causing in you.everything,anything to see you happy.sometimes i feel like im nothing,i cant be a good girlfriend.sometimes i wonder if you'll be better off without me.i wanna tell you that,i really love you very much,just as much as you love me.darling,i'll never leave you.
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I said smth i shouldnt ytd..didnt know it'll have sucha big impact on him.i really didnt mean to..it just came out like that.this is what he wrote in his blog.."I feel pieces of me spliting up.Its as if im an invisible person in front of your eyes.My world of my own is suffering.I'm feeling so useless. Im your burden,your obstacle,your suffering. Because of me,u cant get most of the things you want. I'm the reason why you cant further your studies. Fallen like a star,dreaming the impossible,laughing like the world of my own is tearing apart. And i cant do anything." SIGH.i feel so bad.seriously..if my bro werent in e room i would have cried.im sorry darling,i know you'll be readin' this.i didnt mean to say those stuff k..you'll never be my burden..you're everything to me..hmmm im very happy today.although its only our 2nd month anniversary,i know we'll still have a long way to go..hmmm,went to his hse today.after that we went town and watched seed of chucky.damn funny but kinda scary too.we were like cuddling together.the movie is rather gory.gross too..but didnt regret watchin..hee.after that we went to scotts and eat.haha we went to e mrt next and played a guessing game.was damn funny and childish la.but we're gna do it tmr again.LOL.i bet im gna win ya tmr darling.hehs.well,cant wait to go church tmr!
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went to his blog just now then linked to hers.i read some of her old entries.i nearly cried while reading them..was supposed to dislike her for some stuff she did but i cant bring myself to after reading them.sigh.she used to love him so much..all e pain she went through,it seems like i feel it too.i know how it feels,just like e day i decided to leave "k".she's like me..left our bf not because we didnt love em anymore,but its because they let us down and that we couldnt take it anymore.i hate to admit we have that in common but well,thats e fact.but things arent e same anymore.now that i have him,my life seems gr8.it's as if my world started having colours again.no longer am i hidden in e world whereby i live my life in black and white.he means so so much to me.today he did smth so sweet..he gave me a rather big bottle and i asked him what it was..he said it was poison? lol.its actually a syrup thingy to build up e immune system so you wont fall ill..and he knows im sick so he bought it for me.he's supposed to save up for his shoes but he spend the money on me istead.and that syrup-medicne thingy aint cheap pls.it tastes horrible but he made me promise him i'll take it everyday.and i will.do anything to thank him for being so caring and thoughtful.i will make your money worthwhile,darling.hehs.anyway tmr is THE DAY.hahs i cant wait.guess im gna watch seed of chucky with him!hahs.anyway,my jordie rawks!
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Today's e second last day of sch.[for this week]cant wait til this week ends..its darn boring at sch.really.not only am i tired,im gettin' stressed up too.argh.what an important year!i feel like sleeping in class though,and im sick!got flu and cough.e disease is passing around..hahs.now michael has it too.well,im sorry,who asks you to be beside me.LOL.life is a lil hard and totally diff without juleen.im mostly w e bunch of my guy buddies now.no longer me n jul anymore.sigh,wished she passed..and i had some sucky teachers.actually maybe just one.one VERY,very demanding teacher.she's was previously ethan's form teacher.sigh.today jordie went out w aaron and e rest.i didnt wanna follow cos of some reasons and so i went out w michael,victor,sean,jas and hui.went to v8 to eat and we took neoprints after that.actually didnt really wna take but it was smth rare that all six of us get together and so we decided to take.aint that bad.was kinda fun today.hmmm but i missed him so much.guess he's either at www or e chalet now.oh,anyway seed of chucky is (nc16) now!-yays-im gna watch,no matter what.hehs..alrights guess i'll update either tmr or soon.*two more days,darling.*
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Today's e second last day of sch.[for Hmmm,just finished talkin' online.gonna sleep after updating this entry.gg to school in around 7 hours time..darn bored.this year wont be a "playing" year for me anymore.gotta mug and study hard to aim for TP or smth..anyway on new year eve i went to meet him at hougang and his mummy fetched us to nick's new hse..the inertia crew ppl were there and ey were damn funny.esp nick and tosh,ey were acting dumb,posing as geeks.hahs and then ey started teasing this guy name skillet.LOL.it was damn hilarious..me and jord were practically laughing our heads off.and of cos they were teasing this girl called anet or smth.hahaha.it was kinda fun though we were all half dead e next day.everyone had a hard time sleeping and when ey finally did,i woke em up.hahs and nick made sure i remember that.bear grudges ehs?well,me n jord took a cab down to macs.e rest joined us and after eating,he bought me all e way to raffles.so sweet of him but also pity him cos he stays at e north..gotta go back all e way alone.thats why YOU mean so much to me.hehs.okays guess i shant update anymore.cant take it..damn tired.
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Sigh.my life can only be described by two words.screwed up.only have one emotion to decribe how im feeling now.guilt.i made my best friend mad,made my boyfriend insecure.it wasnt even my idea to let it happen.about hui,i already said whatever i could in my previous entry[which is accidentally deleted just now and i hoped you read it ytd]about you,i said it on my messages..and i know it aint enough..if you're reading this,lemme tell you,i wont leave you or whatsoever.i repeat,i WONT leave you.unless you know..but u said you wont so that means i will be by your side,always.i hope that i can give a sense of security cos i know how hurting and horrible it feels.just wanna say,i'll always remain yours and you,mine.
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Hmmm..been sucha long time since i've last updated my blog..hahs my com is spoilt AGAIN.argh.anyway im at hui's place..gonna meet some peeps later..the same ppl though..lol.sigh..he's not in sg now..at his youth camp.we prayed for each other over the phone..hee kinda stressed..but i guess we needed God to watch over us..hmmm soon it'll be my prom night..gotten my gown and stuff except my heels and accessories and all..tried on my gown w hui just now..now it seems a lil big..hahs.at first i was really excited about gg for my prom..now,i dont really think im really lookin forward to it..for some reasons..after my prom,guess daddy's gonna fetch me and hui to her hse..gonna stay over after the prom..hehs.its a pity only me n hui is gg..well e rest of my clique is just..erm..slackin at home? hee ey must be nuts to miss prom.okay hui is being really insane now..she says she's a nut n in a while later,POP and i'll see a nut beside me.dont get the joke? nvm..cos i dont get it either..-.-" she's just..well..INSANE.k..so guess i've been blabbering quite a lot..gotta prepare to meet my friends..love ya darling.
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Had so much fun at hui's yesterday.jie wen came over to spend e night with us..me and hui were like dancing like retards and forcing jie wen to dance too..but he was like so shy? hahs..so me and hui went crazy,literally.lol..decided to watch horror in e end..jord called and we talked on e phone and he talked so loud everyone could hear him.haha..hui and him was like shouting here and there..after he hang up,we went out at 3.30am to katong park and sat on e swing..saw a few guys whom we suspect was gay and jie wen was sa afraid..he was like.."can we go now" lol.went to get some stuff before heading back to hui's hse.we watched dumb and dumber and we were munching on chips and we threw all e crumbs at jie wen's face when he's sleeping..LOL.its was hilarious..and the thing is that he still continued sleeping..hahs.slept at 7am and was sleepin soundly when my hp kept ringng..jie wen took this chance to wake us up by hitting us continuously with the bolster..hui and i still didnt wake up..in e end hui woke up except me so jie wen asked her if there is any way to wake me up and she said yeah,just pull away her blanket and she will wake up.he was like about to do it when i said that i'd get mad and he decided not to provoke me.hahs..so we all woke up,bathed and all and meet xi wei at parkway..it was kinda weird..he dyed his hair w a few streaks of blue,purple and white..i thought he looked kinda "beng-ish"lol..ate at yoshinoya and saw lotsa broadricians workin there..lol talked,blah blah blah and played pool..played with hui and i won her twice and she won me once.she was rather unlucky today..lol..went back to her hse after playin and got my stuff.daddy came to fetch me while im curling my hair with hui.hahs its D.I.Y..hehs..anyway thats about all..write again.
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Woo.finally this new blogaye is done.hehs..my ex dearie(hui2) helped me with it.so sweet of her right? aww..hahs..well..im stayin' over at her place tonight..wanted to stay over for two days but on sunday i have to go church so too bad.hahs maybe other time.hmmm there's nothing much to update about cause i've been on e com ever since i reached her house.so later then. x)
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